The unseen beauty ...............

Well yeah...it is 25th Dec and yeah that is snow and ummm yeah thats me a li'l less freaked out than normally. But this post isnt abt me but about some of the beauty of the nature which i tried to capture in my camera during my trip to the Himalya's

Well I am not a nature freak or something but the beauty of Himalya's just awestruck me and i couldn't help myself from clicking many a snaps !

The inevitable change

Change is a part of everything, everything changes with time and change is inevitable. No matter how much we may want a thing to remain static we can't do so as everything is dynamic. Some changes are good some are bad.

In the past six months I have experienced a change in me or put it tis way that i have forced myself to change, I have tried to kill whatever my past was, not that I hated my past but it was that i learnt some new things and some things happened in my life which changed me.

Some of the things that i learnt was that never ever give a freaking shit to any one, most of the person in this world are a** h***, and every one wants a piece of you, no one over here is to care for other every one over her is to help themselves why ? because GOD HELPS THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES.

Another thing never ever listen to anyone do what you want to as no ones' comment should matter to you, if you wanna run naked in street do so dont give a shit to anyone. Ever read fountainhead ?? if yes than try to become Howard Roark let every one f*** off let them wipe off their shit to be hell with everyone. Everyone is a bloody hypocrite !!! living for others !!!

Another thing try to become as cold as you can, try to become as complacent as you can, as a complacent person is the most dangerous person you will ever come across.

Never distract yourself in small things like relations because they are such a waste of time, in reality there is nothing such as a relation its just a pact of what all you can do for one another, just do what you want and do anything to do what you want be it ethical or unethical or even be it at a cost of your relation. As you are here for yourself not for anyone else.

And lastly and again no one is here to care for others so never rely on anyone, which everyone learns through experience, never open up yourself to anyone else.

So here I am again changed and different for good and to my old self- "Adios moron" and to some of the persons for whom I opened up myself - " Fuck off bastards Himanshu has changed you don't know him anymore, he is no more what he used to be !!!!"

But she's gone.............

Once there was a boy he was a little different, or much different than any normal person in the sense that he always thought in a manner which was different than the general notion be it in any case, and he was short tempered but never tried to show the anger hidden within him. He always had a weird smile on his face which tried to hide his sorrows. Above all he had very eclectic reactions for almost everything he would do something or another which you would never expect from anyone therefore he wasn't liked by almost everyone and he knew about it, so he tried to distance himself from everyone, because he didn’t believed in believing what others want but believed in himself, so as obvious it should be he had no best friends or something but he only had friends if you want to put it that way but in true senses they were only his colleagues nothing more nothing less. Sometimes when he was alone he used to think of it and feel what the use of his presence on this earth is but he was unable to get any answer.

His loneliness did bother him but he had no one to talk about so he was frustrated by himself. In a way he had everything but in other he had nothing he was doing his under graduation in a premier institute and was let us put it this way somewhat intelligent, hardworking but didn’t always achieved what he wanted, but on the other hand he had no one to talk to openly so in a way he was missing a big part of life the social part of life, but was unable to get it.

Many of his colleagues hated him because he never hid any of his views on anything which to some sounded insults so most of them only talked to him when they needed his help and he knew all about this and many a times he indeed said this in front of them.

One day he met a girl who happened to be a friend of this guys classmate, first time in his life he thought that he met a person who indeed knew what believing in oneself is, and she also could very well predict why this guy was so different than others as she also believed in herself but not to the extent he believed in himself, and she also like him was frank and outspoken and had the courage to put forward her opinion on anything anywhere and at any place.

As days preceded this boy started having more interactions with this girl as he somehow felt that the void which he had felt for so long felt can be plugged by her presence, same was true on the other side. These two used to share each others views on almost everything and enjoyed each others presence and didn’t cared for anything else as they knew that they believed in themselves and there was someone in each case who appreciated it. And than a time came when they couldn’t help feeling restless if they didn’t meet or talked for a long period for some reason or another.

This boy for first time felt that there was someone who cared for him and to whom he can speak as frankly as he wished so he felt happy he somehow started being less frustrated less strained and less sad as he knew there was someone who appreciated him, but during all these days they didn’t felt to name their relation as they seemed it was to futile to do such a job.

But then one day everything came crashing by, the girl called up the boy and told him that she would be leaving the country as she has to pursuit her under graduation. The boy had nothing to say he was left with nothing he knew a part of him was going to die but he was in no position to do anything, he felt why did he met her on the first hand if she had to go away one day. The girl knew what thee silence meant she knew what she had done to him and to her but she was also not in a position to do anything the silence which they had lived with before the ice cold silence was surrounding them again, and they were left stranded with no weapon or anything to fight this silence. All the days all the talks and all the happiness seemed to flash by. With each moment passing by they waited for the end they never thought of.

Then finally the day came he was there on the airport standing silently having nothing to say standing their to pay homage to one part of his life which was going to die than and their he knew he would perhaps might never meet her, he knew the unsaid commitment which they made was going to be broken, and she knew that this silence would now remain for now and forever. They boy just wanted to ask give me a reason……………….But she was gone…………………………………

Freedom

I don't know why we used to say that we were not fee, when britishers' were here, why we still say that we are not free when someone tries to impose his decision on us. No matter what anyone may do to snatch our freedom, he would never be able to do so as it is never in his hands to do so.

Freedom is for what we fought and some of our friends gave life for. It is hard to believe but i think that we were always free. Freedom lies in the response to a stimulant, thats what makes you free.

No one can control others stimuli. You may use coercion but will you be able to change other persons' stimuli, the answer is No! Forget about controlling the reactions of humans we cant even control the reactions of animals (as far as i know), so how can we say we are not free.

All this was because we were unable to properly define the fundamental definition of freedom because of which we ourselves changed our reactions only because we were made to think we were not free.

You may use any force to change any persons' reaction but you simply cant until the other person is convinced by your coercion. Gandhiji used ahimsa as a weapon to fightback the Britishers, what is ahimsa after all, it is simply not changing your stimuli even after one is forcing you to do so.

Humans have this ability to choose their stimuli to choose their response which is what makes them different from animals and when one gives this ability of choosing between different responses to someone else then he is no longer a free person!

What for?

Since ages man has been living on this planet called earth, one generation ends another generation begins this cycle has been continuous in almost all forms of life, older living animals die and young one are born. But all that we do in whole of our life just vanishes with our death, I mean everything is lost in that single instant when one dies. But even than we work hard be it in any field just to know that one day all this would come down to nothing but a dead body a piece of muscles and skin. So why the hell do we study to gain so much knowledge, we work hard to progress in our fields of interest, why do we do this when we know that it is futile to do so. We live in the myth that we are immortal; no one ever dares to think of the day of his death.

Whatever we do, we do it by considering that we would live for many years, but no one ever knows when he or she would die it can be years or can even be the next instant, we never think that all the hard work we do thinking that its for us is not really for us its for the world, by all this the one benefiting is the world the world progresses ahead, and not us our progress is fleeting but the progress of the world is long-lasting. All the fame that one gets is finished once that person dies the person at the most is then documented in the books and nothing more, and once that generation passes the value of it further deteriorates, so all in all we are a fool if we think that whatever we are doing we are doing for ourselves cause its not so and it would never be so!

No matter be it our work or our family whatever we do is nothing or would become nothing, that’s what is the absolute truth its our foolishness to think that whatever we do is everlasting because one day even the family would end. So what for do we do what we do? In this context it really seems that all of us are just actors of a play and after our role is over we will have to leave the stage that’s this world. In the end the person who works 24*7 is equal to the person who does no work at all. So why the hell do we work so hard just to know one day all that we do would stand as virtually nothing, it will mean nothing to others in any case this is what is going to happen no matter whatever we do.

The art of living !

The thing on which the world thrives is lies’ and not truths, this thing is as true as truth, no matter if you agree with this or not cause this is a fact. Gone are the days when telling truth would have benefited you, or you would have been rewarded for being loyal, the need for the day is being a so called diplomat, who in true senses tries to provide a knowledge in such a way that he is the one who is most benefited from, or in some cases try to hide some basic facts which in some way or another benefit him.

Believe me life is much more easy if you know how to lie in the right way, with confidence, and while having no guilt. This is what is used to fool others and surge ahead, and everyone here is not here to help others but to help himself which might sound a little harsh to you but come on answer me whenever you wake up in the morning, and stand in front of the god what do you pray for? For yourself! Isn’t it true? Having said this there is hardly anything more left to prove that almost everyone is selfish, thus everyone wants to be better than others, and you don’t need to be rocket scientist to know that lying is one way which helps you to cheat others and thus surge ahead that’s what everyone has been doing and mind you many of them have been successful. The only thing which differs between them and a common person is their ability to fool you in such a way that you may never recognize it, and that to with confidence and no guilt of any sense.

Lying is an art in itself you need to be perfect in it otherwise it would land you in an ocean of troubles, or in a bottomless pit of guilt. To become perfect in this you need to have a very sharp brain cause you need to think in a more faster way than the other person because you need to convince the other person in almost the same time in which he would be able to comprehend it, so you need to be very fast in cooking up stories and mind you these stories should be convincing or you would be doomed. It’s an old saying “one lie leads to another”, so what if it leads to another so why not let it be, why not to extend this chain till infinity, but mind doing so is not a walk in the park, but if somehow you do that there will be no demarcation between the lie and the truth, so why not to follow this path after all it also is an alternate path to almost everything!

Truth is seldom rewarded and in today’s’ context, as now it is almost impossible to judge whether it’s a lie or truth that almost in every case truth is also considered a lie, so why don’ t we simply lie after all at the end it would be termed as a lie which it really is! One thing which always come in mind while telling a lie is the guilt of faking but believe me this case is mostly with the “emotional fools”, once you get to know how to handle this guilt, you are on the right track !

The first shot

Okay finally after many suggestions and requests I finally have my own blog in which I’ll write whatever comes into my mind and whatever has happened with me time and again and well as many of my friends and those who have met me know that I speak whatever I think I just don’t give a shit to whatever you think of my words so you please don’t be amazed if you find anything “different”. For all those cynics “YOU AREN’T WELCOME” and I know I am not a good writer and please all the sarcastic a** h**** gimme a break I don’t wanna hear any of you condescending reviews or comments full of disdain. And yeah don’t think hard about anything I write as u might not be able to understand and finally give up in reading anymore as one of my friends did with my e-mails (u there Parul) And finally if u like the blog than good else f*** off! Happy reading!

So here I am having nothing to do but to think over my past, which does make me wonder that Himanshu is this what you dreamed of? And then an inner voice utters what the f*** where the hell have I landed! I mean yes I have what I dreamt but not in a way I had thought of I mean I have everything but still I am not having many things for example I have lost my true identity I mean I have lost what I used to be, in short I am not what I used to be a carefree, frivolous fellow but now I am always having one or other problem surrounding me and as my nature goes I don’t give up without a fight till the end so I am always trying to deal with one thing or another in the process of which sometimes I do break up and do all sorts of acts like yelling at my friends, shouting, throwing things away, screaming, running away, and my favorite I take my bicycle and ride it as fast as I can ( One benefit of having a campus like IIT Delhi hehehehehe! ) so if u find anyone passing you by at a high rated speed at around 2300-0200 hrs you should guess it would be me,well about which my friends do ask me about, and some have even suggested that its kiddish as if I never knew that but what the heck do u think I give a damn to what u think, not now my friend I have issues to deal! Otherwise do you really want me to throw things outta my rooms’ window? But anyways its cool to be freaked out, I mean I enjoy being in that mood, but guess what there’s this guy who I don’t know but he always has this look of “I am so frustrated” so I do have competition!

Now I have kind of started to hate myself for what I am, and I am loving it, I am loving to hate myself as I don’t think I have reached what I needed to so ………………..and I like hating myself, technically I hate my mentality I mean I think very much over everything because of which I waste much of my time, and also as I said it that I say anything I thing I want to straight on the face I mean when you least expect anything out of this weird gut you are unexpectedly bombed with something you just though no one could ever speak, as my friend Himanshu (a.k.a. Cookies, the jerk with the weird hairdo which he thinks is cool) says “you just end the conversation with a single word, its like someone speaks and out of the blues you pop up with some sentence which instantly ends everything” thanks buddy for giving such good complements! Now back to hating me stuff- I always dream big (who doesn’t) but there’s a catch I dream bigger! But every time I end up shattering them like anything! So whenever such a thing happens I tend to get furious and this is one thing that bugs me more than any thing else.