Sunday, July 15, 2007

But she's gone.............

Once there was a boy he was a little different, or much different than any normal person in the sense that he always thought in a manner which was different than the general notion be it in any case, and he was short tempered but never tried to show the anger hidden within him. He always had a weird smile on his face which tried to hide his sorrows. Above all he had very eclectic reactions for almost everything he would do something or another which you would never expect from anyone therefore he wasn't liked by almost everyone and he knew about it, so he tried to distance himself from everyone, because he didn’t believed in believing what others want but believed in himself, so as obvious it should be he had no best friends or something but he only had friends if you want to put it that way but in true senses they were only his colleagues nothing more nothing less. Sometimes when he was alone he used to think of it and feel what the use of his presence on this earth is but he was unable to get any answer.

His loneliness did bother him but he had no one to talk about so he was frustrated by himself. In a way he had everything but in other he had nothing he was doing his under graduation in a premier institute and was let us put it this way somewhat intelligent, hardworking but didn’t always achieved what he wanted, but on the other hand he had no one to talk to openly so in a way he was missing a big part of life the social part of life, but was unable to get it.

Many of his colleagues hated him because he never hid any of his views on anything which to some sounded insults so most of them only talked to him when they needed his help and he knew all about this and many a times he indeed said this in front of them.

One day he met a girl who happened to be a friend of this guys classmate, first time in his life he thought that he met a person who indeed knew what believing in oneself is, and she also could very well predict why this guy was so different than others as she also believed in herself but not to the extent he believed in himself, and she also like him was frank and outspoken and had the courage to put forward her opinion on anything anywhere and at any place.

As days preceded this boy started having more interactions with this girl as he somehow felt that the void which he had felt for so long felt can be plugged by her presence, same was true on the other side. These two used to share each others views on almost everything and enjoyed each others presence and didn’t cared for anything else as they knew that they believed in themselves and there was someone in each case who appreciated it. And than a time came when they couldn’t help feeling restless if they didn’t meet or talked for a long period for some reason or another.

This boy for first time felt that there was someone who cared for him and to whom he can speak as frankly as he wished so he felt happy he somehow started being less frustrated less strained and less sad as he knew there was someone who appreciated him, but during all these days they didn’t felt to name their relation as they seemed it was to futile to do such a job.

But then one day everything came crashing by, the girl called up the boy and told him that she would be leaving the country as she has to pursuit her under graduation. The boy had nothing to say he was left with nothing he knew a part of him was going to die but he was in no position to do anything, he felt why did he met her on the first hand if she had to go away one day. The girl knew what thee silence meant she knew what she had done to him and to her but she was also not in a position to do anything the silence which they had lived with before the ice cold silence was surrounding them again, and they were left stranded with no weapon or anything to fight this silence. All the days all the talks and all the happiness seemed to flash by. With each moment passing by they waited for the end they never thought of.

Then finally the day came he was there on the airport standing silently having nothing to say standing their to pay homage to one part of his life which was going to die than and their he knew he would perhaps might never meet her, he knew the unsaid commitment which they made was going to be broken, and she knew that this silence would now remain for now and forever. They boy just wanted to ask give me a reason……………….But she was gone…………………………………